Thursday, October 31, 2013

Changing My Perspective. Literally.


P31 OBS Blog Hop


I suppose it's no coincidence that one of this week's P31 Blog Hop topics is "changing my perspective."

Here's the assignment:

"Has the pain of your past ever made it hard for you to believe God’s promises and plans for your future? What do you sense He wants to change in your perspective? (p. 82, Q1)"

One of the major "pains" in my past is regret and guilt. I agonize over decisions I've made in the past - people I didn't keep in touch with, trips I didn't take, degrees I decided not to pursue, jobs I turned down to stay at home with my kids. Just about every major decision I've made feels like it has some kind of a string of regret tied to it - even the decisions I'm happy with! Crazy, eh?

Earlier this week, on Monday to be exact, I learned something really valuable about perspective. And vision. And hindsight.

At a doctor's appointment, I learned that my physical vision is in jeopardy. My lupus journey is taking me down a road of decreasing vision and possible future blindness.

After listening to the doctor explain "worst case scenarios," I had a moment of clarity.

I've spent so much time in the last few years looking back, living in the past, trying to answer the "what-if's" that I missed so many opportunities to open my eyes and really see all the blessings God's had in front of me along my journey.

Right then and there, I felt the strings tying me to the pains of my past loosen and begin to slip away.

Later, as I reflected on the appointment, I started praying for a permanent release from the pains caused by past decisions. As I've continued praying that prayer this week, I've been amazed by the difference in my perspective. I've found myself loving more freely, noticing more beauty and feeling more peaceful and relaxed.

This lesson this week is one of the many reasons I love the Proverbs 31 Ministry Bible studies. I continue to learn so much from each book we read and from all the wonderful ladies involved in these studies.

12 comments:

  1. Amen, Christa! I think we all have those regrets looking back about things we did or didn't do, but you are so right- we need to let that go and truly live in the moment and take each day that God gives us as the blessing that it is. I am praying for you, sweet sister! Love you! ~Stacy (Group 28)

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  2. Such a blessing to read today. I am right there with you on struggling with guilt and regret. I will continue to pray for you on your lupus journey and pray that those past pains continue to slip away! Love you!

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    1. Thank you so much for your encouragement and note, Jill!

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  3. Thanks for sharing that we need to let go of the past regrets of things we could have or should have done differently but right now we need to look and take hold of the now and the present and move forward with God. We can't change the decisions of the past but we can change our perspective , our view of what we see and do. Praying for you on your Lupus journey knowing God is with you all the way. God Bless you.
    Marilyn (OBS Group Leader)

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    1. Thank you for your encouragement and your prayers Marilyn!

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  4. Thank you so much for sharing, Christy! I watched my aunt suffer from systemic lupus for many years and it was such a tough struggle. Your post makes me really stop for a moment and evaluate how much time I spend looking back and agonizing over decisions or conversations I wished I didn't have or wondered if I should have chosen differently. Lets # Move Forward and see what God has put in front of us. Be encouraged today!

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    1. Amen, Paige! Thank you so much for note and the encouragement :)

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  5. thank you for the hearty sharing, each time i read your blog, i have gained much perspective & learned much for myself,. Keep up Christa

    Joyce

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    1. Thank you for your kind comment Joyce! Hugs!!!

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  6. Beautiful, honest truth! Thank you so much for sharing your clarity as a way to encourage me to change my perspective too. Blessings!

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    1. Thank you for the kind comment and your encouragement! Blessings right back at ya :)

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